w35: sunday review

Hard to summarise why I am back on my gtd nonsense without referring to the reason I wasn't, & that's someone else's story, not mine to tell. But we're all well, we're all safe, etc. Sure, we took some psychic damage, but that's not even special these days.

Right, how did I do these.

things i intended to do and did

• habit tracker says i did really well with making the bed, stepping outdoors, reading, and having designated journalling time.
• habit tracker says i was non-zero at drinking water, brushing the dogs, and cleaning bits of the house.
• i have successfully internalised that i no longer need to check the headlines, the bank, the feeds, etc. i still pick up my phone first thing but i tend to stare at its wallpaper for a minute or two while thinking, in words, 'I don't do this any more. Why am I doing this?' The wallpaper is, of course, of the dogs.
• ended my Spotify premium. checking out Youtube Music (so bad? how so bad?) made me realise that I was at the mercy of design choices that could change at any time, even though I like Spotify right now. They could break it & carry on billing me, you know? so I have spent the last couple of months casually acquiring music files stored locally instead.
• uploaded the sixth assignment and begun the final one. I knew I would score badly on the sixth, but the marker was very kind. I need 30% on the final one. I think I have a different/unknown marker on the final one, because of academic integrity, so there actually need to be thirty correct sentences in the docx. That's fine.

things i intended to do but did not

• normally i put 'the garden' but it appears i have not even been intending to do garden this summer. it's a great habitat. lots of seedheads. very eco, very regenerative. the job list is the same as the job list last autumn.
• go up to watch people at a local auction. not to look at the items (the listings were online & it was all 20th century attic stuff) but to look at the people. i had packed my day bag & left the house & then realised i couldn't face a new place with new people so turned left & went for a walk instead.

intents for week 36

• well, i reread the 12 week year. and last week i reread gtd. which is how you can tell i'm back on my 'maybe this time i can make enough lists to get life how i want it' thing. some people call it Virgo Season, or Back to School season, because we've internalised something about the angle of the light and having our desks tidied.
  • so my three fields of action for weeks 36-47 are
    • write four short stories on paper (something like 5000 words a story)
    • get the hedge down
    • study and track in public (meaning a study discord I'm in, and here)
• aim for 20 minutes a day of handwriting, to be increased when that becomes natural.
• aim for 20 minutes a day of gardening, to be increased when that becomes natural.
• keep a log that can be turned into posts.
• use the study discord's daily accountability channel.
• minor goals: continue acquiring music files, make a stew if there's a cooler day, put prism film on the windows once it arrives, some sort of 'active reading' with notes on one of my library books. follow that gua sha tutorial video again. stuff like that. general... incremental stuff.

This isn't the kind of getting your life together that happens because of hitting a low. This is the kind that happens after a major obstacle gets out of your way. It's a good thing - and I'm journalling enough that I would definitely know if it wasn't. It's going to be fine. It's already fine.