w39 sunday review

scoring the week from my habit tracker

my daily scores from the ten dailies on Sunday morning were 6, 8, 7, 4, 5, 8.

that's a week score of 65%. someone said I was standing up straighter these days.

things that will only need doing once:

• ordered printed A5 inserts from a Welsh designer that look a lot like the layouts I've been drawing with rulers for years. I ordered twelve undated months & 104 undated weeks.
• migrated back to A5 rings & left myself a note in the TN that it doesn't work for my main journal and not to try to switch back. TN format is beautiful! I hope one day I have a project that it suits. But it's not for the whole-life planning.
• finished the first week of S112. it's on the topic of scales in space and time, so it's trying to get every student able to think of billions of years & thousandths of seconds, & light years & micrometres, & do the conversions to SI units. Literally arithmetic and terminology, effortless. I confess I did not know about the SI unit redefinitions - in 2019 and 2020 I was tuned in to other topics & didn't hear about it. I'm genuinely impressed we got certain enough of those constants to define the realm by them.

things worth mentioning:

• I hauled enough bramble out of the hedge to fill the garden bin for collection day. There's a lot to do.
• Enjoyed writing my weekly recommendations post.
• Summer clothes away, jumpers & thermals out of the compression bag. No moths this year!
• I've been active reading! Started with the magazines because I knew I'd be chucking them in the recycling, so I wanted to sit with a pen in my other hand & note down book recs & people to look up on wikipedia (Tony Benn, Chiron, the Wertheimers) and it just caught.
• Thursday afternoon I was irritable at emails & my husband caught me frowning at my phone & said very gently "I know it isn't Friday, but should I put your phone in the knife drawer already?" so my phone screen time is __ for the week.
  • I'm thinking about what it would feel like to be even more unavailable than I am. What would it be like to pick up emails once a week? say Thursday afternoons. Would it make me dread Thursday afternoons like I used to dread Mondays? Or could I treat it like opening the lid of a worm bin, and be disgusted but emotionally neutral about it?
• My sleep is getting better quicker than I expected. It's reassuring.
• It's only two years since blackberries, Virginia, & Anne. What a bizarre two years. I didn't freeze or stew any this year either. I stewed apples from the trees, though. They haven't managed to stop apple time.
• I realise I wasn't keeping my '12 week year' goals in view. they were to write four short stories on paper (something like 5000 words a story), get the hedge down, study & track in public (meaning a study discord I'm in, and here). In these first 4 weeks I have done 97 words, two sessions on the hedge, and full success on tracking in public. What needs to change?
  • How am I getting in the way? Focusing on the little tasks that come with living in a body in a house, instead of sitting at the desk with only one notebook, or going outside with tools.
  • Maybe I chose my goals wrong - maybe I needed to make this autumn about rebuilding my identity in our home, or maybe I should have set 'reclaim the house' as a goal rather than as something that would just ambiently happen as I got better. I'm not going to change the goals, & I am giving myself quite a lot of grace for rebuilding this autumn. Would you feel better if you had a completed story but dirty floors & empty cupboards? It's complicated. It's deeply gendered. But no, I actually feel fine about having the stories still in my head but my house safe and pleasant. What an interesting thing to learn about oneself!

intents for w40:

• genuinely just one session cutting the hedge. it won't make visible progress but it will help my mind.
• 100w-level outline of one of the short stories
• upload a third post of some kind in addition to these recs & review posts
• monthly reset: MOOP collection, folder changeover, reading roundup post
• weeding the drive and patio if there's a dry day
• tidy the conservatory so that it's a second workspace for me, to keep up my light exposure over winter